I Have Severe OCD | The Secret Life of Lele Pons

It’s no secret Lele Pons is one of the most successful social media icons with over 40 million followers and considered an internet trailblazer for her contributions to various platforms. Known for her unfiltered videos, candid humor and crazy stunts, Lele’s storytelling arch takes a more serious tone as she opens up to the world with her deepest secret. Through access to private moments, emotional interviews and never seen before footage, Lele reveals her life long struggle with OCD among other mental health conditions and doesn’t shy away from the most intimate details of her battle.
If you or someone you know needs help, find resources in your area from the International OCD Foundation: iocdf.org/?s=+&post_type%5B%5D=iocdf_provider&post_type%5B%5D=iocdf_clinic&post_type%5B%5D=iocdf_support_group&post_type%5B%5D=iocdf_program&search-type=provider
Produced by: Shots Studios
Directed by: Alicia Zubikowski




  • Thank you everyone for supporting me. I hope you enjoy this docu-series and learn about OCD, Tourettes, and other things. LIKE the video if you watch it! I'll see you next Tuesday for episode 2 :)

    Lele PonsLele Pons5 days ago
    • I am your biges fan lele!

      Laura SchmidtLaura Schmidt2 days ago
    • I love you lele pons

      EricEric5 days ago
    • I love u Lele

      Jady ClovisJady Clovis5 days ago
    • I loveee youuuu leleeee❤️❤️❤️❤️

      Sandra ApunSandra Apun5 days ago
    • Love this video lele

      Chibi AlpacaChibi Alpaca5 days ago
  • Lele stay strong we love you boo❤️❤️❤️

    Mochi Bubblie BearMochi Bubblie Bear10 hours ago
  • Ur unique lele iam a huge fan

    Aysia CartyAysia Carty10 hours ago
  • I think you are very beautiful inside and out and I hope you celebrate all you have accomplished. Thank you for sharing your story.

    David WoodwardDavid Woodward10 hours ago
  • I am praying for you 🙏 because I've been through the same thing. It's not fun at all.

    Shawna cavinShawna cavin10 hours ago
  • Lele, you’re beautiful, brave, smart, funny and REAL!!! Real people are hard to find in this world. Don’t change🌻💛

    Bel G.Bel G.10 hours ago
  • Thank you for sharing this and advocating for mental illness and ocd. I thought you were beautiful before but even more so now

    Cassidy CampbellCassidy Campbell10 hours ago
  • I- never knew lele had ocd I’m so sorry lele

    Mochi Bubblie BearMochi Bubblie Bear10 hours ago
  • this sounds alot like something i do im lowkey scared now

    Avocado EmmyAvocado Emmy10 hours ago
  • Seeing your tears I felt so bad lele.....I really love u.... And it hurts knowing u like that... Because all I known that u was so cheerful

    Maisha KhanMaisha Khan10 hours ago
  • I have ocd to!!

    Sierra HardingSierra Harding10 hours ago
  • Lele pons you are the best one I ever seen let people the f***** up do the best of the best and keep on making shows please for me that's my world

    Caiden ClarkCaiden Clark10 hours ago
  • It is ok

    Taylor unicornTaylor unicorn10 hours ago
  • You and Hannah stocking are my favorite USprojectrs

    Human Gotcha life fnafHuman Gotcha life fnaf10 hours ago
  • is bad humor another???

    The Inspirational G.A.PThe Inspirational G.A.P10 hours ago
  • Jesus loves you and He wants to set you free. He can do it and is willing to. Psalm 1<a href="#" class="seekto" data-time="183">03:3</a> “He who forgives all our sins and heals all our diseases”. Just be open and believe with your heart and ask Him and He will do it! Bless you, love you!

    Thiago TrigoThiago Trigo10 hours ago
  • Keep your negative energy away if you don’t have nothing nice to say don’t say it she’s human too and as humans we’re supposed to help each other not bring each other down may we be glad that she’s here her very existence is a blessing

    SutisanSutisan10 hours ago
  • I know you from your videos and you have a great talent, I know nothing really about OCD, I hope you find something that works for you. I wish you only the best honey, stay strong. 💟✝️☮️ Penny

    Penny RosePenny Rose11 hours ago
  • I have severe anxiety/depression and I am so very very sorry that you have OCD. I understand suffering and my heart ❤️ breaks for you. May God bless you and give you relief. This is what I pray for every day. Love you Lele and hope you find peace. Never give up!

    B SouzaB Souza11 hours ago
  • I wonder if there's a nutritional deficiency because the under eyes look yellow

  • wow Lele I'm so sorry you're going through this

    Gabrelle GoldsmithGabrelle Goldsmith11 hours ago
  • You have my prayer you can get through this :)

    Marcos PachecoMarcos Pacheco11 hours ago
  • I had it similar but not as bad..and God healed me. He is the ultimate healer! doctors & medications can only do so much. Seek God & pastors and churches Lele Pons he can heal you!!

    Hello LovelyHello Lovely11 hours ago
  • You are so brave. I feel very bad for you because you have to deal with OCD and depression. I hope you get better soon.

    Alaa ArabAlaa Arab11 hours ago
  • I have severe anxiety. I feel her pain. Stay strong.

    Freduardo TayoFreduardo Tayo11 hours ago
  • I feel so awful for her. Mental illnesses don’t just disappear when you’re rich/famous. Her struggles are real, and it’s so awful how she’s been treated by the internet. Just because someone’s humor is different than yours, it does NOT give you the right to mercilessly bully them.

    BoopBoop11 hours ago
  • Things are more of a secret if you don't post them on youtube

    Mr. JacksonMr. Jackson11 hours ago
  • I want you to know I completely understand because I have it too. You can get better. I did! If you would like to talk to me please let me know. I would like to be there for you❤

    Lori HudsonLori Hudson11 hours ago
  • We love u lele

    Arie GostonArie Goston11 hours ago
  • 😥😥😥um so srry I hope u get through everything

    Arie GostonArie Goston11 hours ago
  • Lele is a natural and she is my favorite I just feel bad for this if I was in her shoes I would do the same

    Arie GostonArie Goston11 hours ago
  • I feel so bad for her like this is so deep I not joking I crying this is so sad... 😖

    Jayelle TandyJayelle Tandy11 hours ago
  • No se quien es, ni que tiene. Yo le doy igual, está re linda

    German Leo GerlingGerman Leo Gerling11 hours ago
  • Lele I’m so sorry for you I wish I was there for you to help you to make you happy to make you like to open your doors your stuff and you don’t want to touch it like I can do it I just wish I was there for you and and I heard it hurts I love you Lele

    Hermila CantuHermila Cantu11 hours ago
  • <a href="#" class="seekto" data-time="1250">20:50</a>

    Ráfi SolomonRáfi Solomon11 hours ago
  • whoever dislike this have no heart

    vanessa wrightvanessa wright11 hours ago
  • I’ve been in therapy for about 4 years now and I’m finally getting ocd under control now I still have to do some rituals but it’s definitely better. Thank you for talking about this and bring awareness ocd is more than cleaning

    IzzyIzzy11 hours ago
  • Stay strong. Please be safe.

    Daniel FoxworthyDaniel Foxworthy11 hours ago
  • I am having more confidence in my self cause I have OCD

    Folsch29Folsch2911 hours ago
  • If you don’t like lele Pons fight me bout it

    Jaylon BoydJaylon Boyd11 hours ago
  • You know I never understood what OCD ment. And I didn't really like lele sometimes and then sometimes I thought she was cute and funny. What I'm trying to say is I appreciate this vid and her telling her story. And it gives me a new perspective on her side. And you have to admit even if you don't like someone you have time admit when they are strong in their vulnerable moments and open up. I totally respect her for this and everyone else who has to go through anything like this, and to anyone who is sharing their story, thank you.💙

    Fandom LoveFandom Love11 hours ago
  • I can relate to you... I also have OCD and I have to do everything at least 4 times, 2 is a bad number for me. Technically I haven't been diagnosed so I'm deciding whether I say I have it or not... anyway I don't know what else I have but whenever I'm focused on a certain sound it starts to yell at me so yeah- Edit: I dont think I need therapy because I don't have it as bad as her so-

    BetH -BetH -11 hours ago
  • I had ocd as a kid, I teared up at the video of her with her therapist omg 😭. I feel for people that struggle with this

    Abby NAbby N11 hours ago
  • I feel so bad 4 u and it is so funny

    Folsch29Folsch2911 hours ago
  • I'm crying for you plz be okay

    Malcolm allen MercadoMalcolm allen Mercado11 hours ago
  • Girly u just got yourself a new subscriber💛

    Holly rifeHolly rife11 hours ago
  • I feel like we all just needed to see something like this. we would just mindlessly watch this super fun girl, not even knowing what she was going through. I respect her so much more. She is so strong and lele i know you can fight it.

    Holly rifeHolly rife11 hours ago
  • Cuando vi tu historia, vi la mía porque desde chica que tuve toc y los sigo teniendo. Entiendo cómo te sentías porque siento lo mismo. Me alegra que pudiste y sigas saliendo de eso porque convivir con toc te desgasta la cabeza y eso me pasa. Te conocí hoy por primera vez y sos una gran mujer. Sigue adelante Lele!!!

    Maricel YeatesMaricel Yeates11 hours ago
  • Omg lele I'm sorry that u have to go through all of this and I really respect u even more than before bcs u had enough strength to tell ur story 😢😢😢💔 plz be strong girl u can survive

    HANNAHHANNAH11 hours ago
  • I have ice and I'm 12 and my mom does not get it I have to clean every day I hat it even when I'm sick and I have to make stuff even and my paper has to be neat if I itch left are I have to itch my right

    Paige ElliottPaige Elliott11 hours ago
  • I am a big fan of lele and I would never bully her

    alicia morenoalicia moreno11 hours ago
  • Lele pons you are so entertaining and funny 😂 keep it up you are amazing ♥❤💕👍😊😎😎😎😎😎

    Nishka PrasadNishka Prasad11 hours ago
  • Porque ponen dislikes a Lele, lo que ella habla es algo muy importante, para ella. Entiendanla

    Guadalupe Rodriguez ZahnGuadalupe Rodriguez Zahn11 hours ago
  • I have ocd too. I am glad i am not alone

    Rjo PlayzRjo Playz11 hours ago
  • This is the first time I think I've related to someone about something like this. I have this thing where I fear certain objects, actions, foods, and so on because I feel like they are bad luck and they affect the future positively or negatively. I always just thought I was crazy so I Fr have never told anyone, but now it makes sense. It's bad enough for me to the point where It will look like an addiction to an outsider, but addiction to something they don't understand, but it eases as life goes up. Now it makes a lot more sense.

    Harry WolfHarry Wolf11 hours ago
  • Thank you for bravely sharing your story as I am someone who struggles with OCD and ADHD as well and this video empowered me to share more of my story! Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

    Kiera Michelle BrennanKiera Michelle Brennan11 hours ago
  • It’s really hard how I’ve been laughing to all her videos like she’s funny but it’s painful how she hold in for a decade it hurt really much. I will love you for life Lele thank you I still watch and support ur video love you 😘.

    Thatgirl SheyThatgirl Shey11 hours ago
  • Lele I want to say that u are very special and no matter what anyone says u are important to millions of people we love just the way u are

    Sherman WilliamsSherman Williams11 hours ago
  • Leledon’t listen to others you will be ok I love you❤️🥺

    iilovehearts Girliilovehearts Girl12 hours ago
  • ❤️❤️❤️

    XodusOnanXodusOnan12 hours ago
  • I am so sorry Lele.. 😭😭😭😭😭😭💕💕💕💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

    rosi1alrosi1al12 hours ago
  • Lele doyou

    Mariela Rodriguez LillMariela Rodriguez Lill12 hours ago
  • Lele doyou speak in english

    Mariela Rodriguez LillMariela Rodriguez Lill12 hours ago
  • damn, ion remember asking

    Joe DanJoe Dan12 hours ago
  • I think I've heard every one of my coworkers say they have OCD. If only they really knew what OCD really is. Look at what this poor lady has to deal with.

    bonek350bonek35012 hours ago
  • Lele Pons please don't let negative comments gets you down, cause in life you're always gonna have good and bad opinions and there are many heartless people in this world. Just continue to be a great and a funny person. And always remember in everything that you do, someone might not like it. Turn your negative comments into a positive motivational energy it works all the time.

    I AM JEMI AM JEM12 hours ago

    Andres Figueroa PalosAndres Figueroa Palos12 hours ago
  • It's ok, just keep praying and have faith

    Itz -Lil_Pup-Itz -Lil_Pup-12 hours ago
  • Read “The Power of Now”

    V1GibbyV1Gibby12 hours ago
  • Do your thing✨ Don’t let the haters get you..It really Hurts to see You suffer like this😭We love You so much your vines and love trough out the world💖

    Random얀얀Random얀얀12 hours ago
  • Imagine how perfect everything would be if everyone had OCD?

    Salvon TVSalvon TV12 hours ago
  • Lele I am 12 years old and I have looked up to you since I was 7 and I still look up to u like when I was having a bad day u made me happy . You r great in every way you try to be the best u can and that is what I love about you ❤️❤️❤️😁😁😁

    keke vlogskeke vlogs12 hours ago
  • God can heal you from that Lele. There is nothing else you need but him. There’s is a void in you that only him the king 👑 of kings can only fill and his name is Jesus. The one that died on that cross for me and you and everyone reading this.

    It’s Alejandra E.It’s Alejandra E.12 hours ago
    • It’s Alejandra E. Sorry to break it to u but god doesn’t magically “heal” mental disorders... medicine and therapy does, and even then it only helps to a certain extent...

      AlyssaAlyssa11 hours ago
    • Seek him and you will find him.

      It’s Alejandra E.It’s Alejandra E.12 hours ago
  • As an artist, I get it, you want what you do to be the best of its kind. But then you eventually realize, meh, it is what it is but I myself am great on my own independent of my talent. Hope you can find the good side of being independent from the talent and from the art. Just enjoy being . :) It took me many years to find that appreciation of enjoyment away from the identity, but it exists, and it's pretty darn nice I can say

    C CMC CM12 hours ago
  • Whoa.

    Louis KéLouis Ké12 hours ago
  • Whos finna get shot

    Sharon RodgersSharon Rodgers12 hours ago
  • U are inspiring strong funny

    Sharon RodgersSharon Rodgers12 hours ago
  • 3 min in i already subscribed even with all this u look like a really awesome person i may never heard of you but i can already tell u look and are a wonderful person and i am glad that you have people who support you through it all

    Radio DemonRadio Demon12 hours ago
  • Lele I’m here for you whenever I’m down you make me so happy and u love how your so strong!💜💜 hang in there💜

    Ameerah SteeleAmeerah Steele12 hours ago
  • Dear Lele, I pray for you. I really really hope that you are ok. I have no idea how you are feel but i hope that you are getting the care for your OCD.

    Mea RedcayMea Redcay12 hours ago